Unconsciously, it's already August 2023. Time flies, as if it was just yesterday when I first encountered the National Simulated Sociological Experiment, today is different from the past.
I remember every year since the beginning, I find that my thoughts are constantly undergoing earth-shaking changes. In the first Chinese class of the first year of high school, the Chinese teacher asked us what our impression of our middle school life was. I answered with one word, "immature." Looking back now, I still feel the same way. I remember the stupid things I did in elementary school or middle school, or the embarrassing things, I wish I could slap myself, haha. Sometimes when I think back on things, I may not have reached that level of letting go.
In the year-end summary of 2022, I mentioned: the psychology teacher asked us to choose our expectations for academic life, and I chose "busy." It seems like I'm not suited for idleness, when I'm idle, I can only mock myself, "then be a mascot." Being busy may degenerate into what our counselor calls "pseudo-studying" or "pseudo-effort," but this inexplicable sense of fulfillment it gives us can make us happy, and happiness is the source of joy.
I've been reviewing English vocabulary recently. Some time ago, I tested my reading vocabulary on Baicizhan and found out that "the clown is actually me." English vocabulary is endless, unfinishable, and unteachable. Only by inputting well can we make progress. "What you say when you have nothing in your stomach and what you say when your stomach is full are quite different." Our current English teacher is right.
There's a popular saying in "Honkai Impact 3rd," although I haven't played it, I understand it. A young man named Yan Qing, ignorant of the heights and depths of the sky, challenged three particularly powerful characters alone. "Five people, I want to fight three." I think for someone like me who hasn't even finished memorizing the college entrance examination vocabulary, it's too ambitious to memorize both the college entrance examination and TEM-8 vocabularies at the same time.
Being busy can elevate our state of mind. In the words of our English teacher, it's like "looking at problems from the mountaintop, everything becomes simple." After reaching a higher state of mind, when those with lower states of mind try to engage in conversation, it feels uncomfortable. "Mumbling and mocking are hard to listen to." Thinking oneself as "the best in the world," but actually being a clown. Elevating one's state of mind is one's own business, how can others do it for you?
I also remember that I haven't written poetry for a long time. I'm afraid my poetry talent is not good, and it has been worn out like this. Here is a new one for everyone to enjoy.
The wind chimes on the eaves are swayed by the warm wind
Wild boars run in the damp grass
This city, this utopia
Prepares for the vibrant, long-lost, and warm sunshine to shine
When people feel joy for the arrival of a new day
He plays the piano and recites ancient ballads
This city, perhaps its history is not long enough
But the people of this city
Can be said to be the most blessed peopleHe sings
Singing the cruel history of the past
Singing the glory of the knights of the past
Singing the decline of the autocratic nobility
Singing the black-haired youth overthrowing the high walls
He not only praises the past
But also praises the present
Blessing the futurePerhaps understanding their common destiny
He was the first to become like this
This city, this free utopia
Once because of his divine power
The autocracy of divine power trampled on the past freedom
Former freedom fighters became the guardians of autocracy
The ballads of that time have long been lost with the wind
Using the identity of a god
Forging a contract
Cleverly removing the bell he had previously tiedHiding divinity
Revealing material desires
Drinking a thousand cups of wine is still not drunk
A single tile leans towards the morning light
This may be the appearance of him that we see
Teaching a child to ride a bicycle
Should be bold and let go